Growing Up

That Excites me…

Life moves on and everything happen for a reason…to give up in the end is far easier than giving up everything to live through it, its a different feeling…

4 practicals, 10 days… And long vacation! When its all done, am becoming what i dreamt of since 2009??? Almost a decade in making a dream come true… Boring higher secondary tutions, a year of preparation behind closed doors, nearly 5years of college… Uff!!! And now, going for the last fight ( atleast inside my head ), it’s a long way, can’t believe, looking back i made through till this day in one piece ( rhetorically ).

So yeah, day after tomorrow my practical starts. Why this post? I thought this is kinda that day, i got why i should not give up on my dream. Not that it took a decade, but it is transforming me… Irresponsible kid to someone more responsible ( oops! I will explain that later ). And i love that part of this phase.

2017, it started out like any other year! Adding one year to my existence in this planet ( pain pf having born in January ), 4months into it, Alas! It been the best, i guess!

Final phase of college, the pain of leaving has never been there ( not because of the intern year ), but the few people i was lucky to be with in this phase of life. From keeping my facial muscles busy, letting me feel at ease, from being a stranger to a wellwisher to eyeopener ( this person deserves more adjectives that these ) . The healthy relations and the new opppurtunities i realised in the last 4months, motivates me! 

Becoming what i dreamt of and loving what i become is all that is needed for a happy life…is it? ( Hope i write back one day, saying i was right )!


Who am i

Old habits die hard. Yeah, am in kinda Same situation again and again. Inability to give away things or trying to make things fall in place, desperately. This is not the right time to do it or its ok, to do this how i do it. Exam time is making me go mad at myself. Questions pop up every now and then, ‘Who am I?’ ‘Why are you here?’, am like yeah, i cant really get and answer for it, rather i will study a question for the exam. Its alright. It happens during these times. I can do anything with help of the one who strengthens me, to him i give everything, in him i believe. Whoever am, its all his plan,  am here to do his job. Chill my mind and focus, my part is not yet over for the exam…


Does the Universe conspire??

I really don’t know am being mad stating that, it does. So far, so good in my exams. 3 paper over! Everything was tight around here so far. Papers were very easy and me messing it up in the end, yeah. Hope things go like this for the rest of the season. This phase is…one to keep. My strengths and weaknesses fully exposed to myself. Am loving this, and liking every inch of this.